Illness anger

I hate men, they upset me - especially certain men, the heartbreaking kind. The one's that thinks its ok to leave you with a flat that you bought together, when he knows you can't afford to keep it and he thinks its acceptable to leave you with nothing, not even a penny. He thinks its ok because he couldn't take it anymore, he wanted to not have to feel bad about himself, he didnt want to change, he wanted to stay a little boy forever. Well, let's put it this way you have managed to prove that last bit by running away from your responsibilities... I don't get how men just move on after a break up, the next day they are all happy and living their lives as if nothing happened, although when in a relationship they always need a lot of attention all the fucking time, and reassurance...a lot of reassurance. But when its over, it's over no looking back no heartache. Why do I have to feel so bad right now, why can't he, I am the one that has to do something, finish something, use my brain! It is soooo unfair, it's such a bad time for me right now, why now? Couldn't he have done it during the summer at least, so that the warm weather might cheer me up and the sun warm my body, rather than the cold winter winds making me sick and the heating in my room not even close to heating the room up, not even close to warming the pieces of my broken heart.
How much does a person hate you when they leave you in financial despair, unable to work properly because work means using ur brain, and still has the guts to say that it will pass with time and they still love you???
I hate you for making me this unhappy, and being happy for you!