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so its been a while... I have been so occupied with work that every time I even thought of writing anything else I felt guilty (I guess I kinda still do), but now it is time to return. Not that I have much to say, well actually I have a lot, however, some things have to be kept close for now. I have spent the past weeks and days getting my thesis kinda on track, slowly but steadily it is moving in the right direction - that which will get me the hell out of this small village sooner rather than later. In between work I have had some good and drunken nights with all kinds of new people, well new to me that is. Most of them are male philosophers, which can be fun, yet a bit tiring when every statement by me is followed by some one asking why, at the same time as they seem unable to converse about anything but their own subject of study! Sick! They are all good guys though, and my god they can drink - A LOT. This is my main reason for being back here - I am drained, weakened beyond recognition, my brain is swimming in a pool of alcohol. I also thing my liver is going to be severely damaged if I don't stop hanging out with these people, we'll see, I've never been any good at saying no to drinking though. And we all know disaster is not far off when one drinks, particularly extreme amounts. I would love to recap my embarrassing moments, but I think I have to be ok with them first, let me give u a short but sweet taster: made a pass at a friend of a friend who just broke up with the love of his life, winking so much that any man would be scared senseless - I think he was because he poured his newly bought drink down his neck and ran out of the bar! Another example is my party, yes I had a party, I found myself standing in the middle of a room with five guys all trying to impress me with their dance moves. Slowly I was forced to back into a corner where I found myself leaning just a bit too much backwards making me fall and almost crushed my aloe vera (it's maybe 1/2 meter tall) plant, while all could have been avoided by just asking the men to back off a bit...desperate I am! While I am tragically still hooked on someone else, the boy that I will never be able to have again, which continues to make me sad on occasion. But at least I am drinking my sorrows away in the company of pseudo intellectuals that all seem to be as desperate as me. Its comforting to know that one is not alone somehow. If just my heart and soul could let go of the past they would all be very good catches indeed!

Soon I will have a break from the village wiiiiiwiiiii and will be found in Athens, Greece, for a week or so! Hopefully I can manage to finish my work by then, and hopefully without disappointing the boss too much. I will just have to get back to work, and not drink so much, maybe, yeah definitely!