I can't believe I am caught in this trap again. It must be my personality. I wait and wait, but they show no interest, I try playing someone I am not and they show no interest, I give up and they haven't even noticed. I pick them that's why. I guess. I said let's see what happens, I just came out of a relationship. That doesn't mean treat me like I am no one, like I don't exist. I try to be just me, but it seems most of the time that is not enough. Maybe I am getting too old for this dating 'game'. Maybe I should just give up. I think I would like to, but I can't. I want sex too much..