30/09/2008

Goodbye my old friend

A great big mess this is, ex-husband leaving me alone in the blog sphere. We will all miss you! I will miss your challenging posts about politics and policies, your quirky and humorous comments on our life here in the village, the wit will be sorely missed. Why is it that people take this blogging business so personally sometimes? I mean who reads another person's blog and immediately thinks its about them, even though one might be on the other side of the globe? It makes no sense to me at all. Of course we all agree or disagree that's the beauty of the world wide web, and we learn or find bits of ourselves in other people's written words, yet it does not mean it is about me more than it is about you. Does it? I don't take anything on the web personally - you can't! Yeah there are people out there that disgust me, but I just skip their words and move on to another. I don't claim to be writing this blog for anyone else but myself and maybe that is naive in this world of flowing information. You who know me can easily read between the lines and know who I am in 'reality' and that is good for me since I express myself much more freely on here than in that 'other' world. I do not get offended when people think I am anything, however, I really don't care overall (a lot of people pretend they don't care what other people think about them, but in fact they really do) what you or anyone thinks about me. My approach to life has always been I am who I am, I might change and evolve like everyone else, but in essence I am this person, this personality, these traits (good AND bad), and if you don't like me don't be my friend, don't read my blog, leave me alone! Cause I really don't give a fuck what you think of me. If you want to be my friend - GREAT! If you don't then stop bitching about it! We all of course need recognition from time to time, and for me this is the difficult thing about doing a Ph.D. one has to find accomplishment in ones' own words and achievements, not expect it from others. Not until the 3-6 years (depending on where in the world you are or how long it takes you to finish the beast) are over and the defence has been passed, and you can finally after all the effort call yourself a Dr, will people give you a pat on the back and say well done. It is a struggle, yet one that can change your life. Back to my main theme, itelli, he has now decided enough is enough and left the keyboard for another angle. I hope he will come back, but I respect his decision and will not push it - other than this: If you liked his words, his view on life and matters of great to no importance, tell him so, one last time! Maybe we can lure him back...or just let him know he will be missed.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I adore you.

But u shouldn't disturb the dead... ;)

sunflower said...

You're words are very alive for a dead man :)