I told u so

I'm back in Scotland again and what a shock - the temperatures are freezing and the sun is too shy to look at the Scots pale bodies to even peek out from behind the clouds. Also everything has changed here...its only been half a year, but it's changed. New structures, new stores, new people... I guess I can't expect it to stay the same forever, but hey this is just too much for me to take in. This little village on the cliff is usually so beautiful and peaceful, but without the weather to brighten it up it feels like autumn, except for the golfers and the lack of students... I hear that Norway has summer while I'm away - oh how I wish I was a Goddess right now. I would just redirect the sun in my direction and make it warm up my shivering body. Although its cold I have good friends to warm my heart, and how I've missed them. They are all so welcoming and happy to see me, why did I ever move? Oslo is good, but all of the friends I had before I spent these six years in the UK have all disappeared - well I guess there are a couple who will always be there, to be fair they have to be mentioned. However way I look at it though my friends here (Scotland) are the best! They always make me feel special and welcome and they are not as timid as many Scandos are - I miss them a lot. It is hard to move to a different country all by yourself, but as I have found out even more difficult to move back to a country which was your home for twenty years to find you feel lonely without the people you left behind. I am stuck in my flat (of choice) working most of the days and since I don't have a university/school/job to go to I meet no one but the people I meet through my best friend. Nothing wrong with them and nothing wrong with her - we are just different people...if that makes sense without hurting anyone's feelings? I need intelligent conversation about the news, the world, art...So I miss being here, miss having people around me that appreciate me for who I am and not the clothes I wear. Norway is sooooo superficial, fashion means too much - either you follow the latest trends meticulously or you don't, and if so you have to have a clearly defined one for it to 'work'...Maybe I'm the one who's superficial - I just don't feel at home in my own city anymore! I think I might have made a mistake moving back...hssss don't tell my parents! When on that subject, my father seems to be very happy I've moved back. I did miss my parents a lot, but I guess I didn't actually miss the country that much...I mean it's great compared to a lot of other places, but the people can sometimes be too posh, stuck up, timid, full of fear of what they don't know...and what bugs me the most hung up on skiing!
I just wanted to say that I am glad people are different all over the world, and I am glad I have so many good friends that I know I can always count on. I am glad I am here so that I can see you all and feel encouraged and appreciated and snuggling warm inside in your company. I miss you guys - I really do!