when will I learn, when will I heal?

I was angry at you, you know. I wanted a bit of recognition, a bit of appreciation perhaps. Was that too hard? Too difficult for you? To think of someone other than yourself for a while? I guess I had too many expectations, too much admiration, too much love to give. Too friendly and happy to expect dismissal in such an abrupt manner. I realise that 'the situation' made you uncomfortable, that you are not used to someone being like you. And yet, I am not like you, I try at least to consider other people around me. Consider their feelings before I act, well then again I don't always manage to keep control of my inner beast and turn with alcohol into a she-beast hunting for prey. Only when I am single though. When I was younger I went through boys as if they were roller coaster rides. But what fun roller coaster rides those boys were. Thank you guys, it was most enjoyable. Oh days of three times a day, how far away you seem now. *big sigh* and sex for more than 20 minutes and several times in a row *big sigh*

On that note, I would love to do a questionnaire on the clitoris and its location. How many men actually know where it is located on a female body? How many women know? What? I mean, I am sure there are women out there that have never masturbated, or even if they know the touch of it, have they ever looked? I have had the experience of many a man/boy not knowing his way around the female vagina. You will never find it if you don't look will you! Sometimes men have to be told they are on the wrong side of the panty line. I would forgive a boy any day, but a grown man? Common a few partners under your belt, you've got to at least have a clue where it is. Am I wrong in assuming this? Are all those women/girls to blame? I don't think so! Or I hope not. I never had any problem telling a guy what to do, where to go, of course mostly when someone is way, way off track...you try to tell then, try to show them, but they just don't get it. And even if they get it, they quickly go back to their old tricks. Shame really.

This started in one place and ended in another, a great big flow of consciousness. Happy about that!