Sister I love you, don't ever think I don't or that it will ever change. You are the meaning to all the madness, you are the one that keeps me afloat, motivate me to go on, to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Whatever happens you will always be important to me, the love between us will never go weak. I will take care of you if you need me to, the same way I expect you to take care of me if I need it. I wish everyday that we were closer to eachother in distance, not across water and boundaries as we are today, so that I could stop by to have coffee or make you dinner or just provoke one little smile or a flood of tears. We haven't always been close, but these last couple of years we have grown together, although you feel otherwise, we have grown stronger together, I am your rock that you can always lean on and when sadness fills my life of late you have been there to support me, to tell me I am not in the wrong, that I am not weak, that I am worth more. At times we annoy eachother that's natural, but mixed in with that annoyance is always the love I feel for you, always the hand out stretched for you to grab whenever you want. I will NOT leave you that is impossible. Even when we are so far away I carry you with me, I feel your pain too well sometimes. I may not always show it - I try to be strong, emotions don't always come easy, is not frequently let loose from it's cage to rage on my face. However, I feel your pain, I wish I could share it with you, wish I could change it, make you happy, choose the right way for you. Unfortunately I can't, even if I try hard I can't. In any case don't ever think I will stop loving you or that I will leave you alone because of convenience.