Life as unusual

Got a new haircut, a fringe, it seems to be causing a lot of stir, especially from the opposite sex. I haven't gotten this much attention from the male population of the species since since since...well I don't know how long, since I was 20 perhaps. Maybe my eyes have been closed to these glares and smiles, the potential flirts, the chat-up lines. But ever since my haircut men have been smiling and looking with those inspecting and searching eyes, saying 'are you free? are you interested? do you want to?' Or maybe it's not the haircut at all, maybe it's the big sign over my head saying 'LOOK AT ME I AM SINGLE!' It's strange to say that again, after two and a half years, to start at fresh, to consider potential suitors, to be on the market again. My eyes have been completely on one person for so long that I find it hard to not compare him to them - these strangers and the man I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. He told me he was jealous, but I only had eyes for him, wouldn't even look at another man, and if I did I never found anyone attractive. I still feel a little like that, a tiny bit guilty for even considering another man. I guess I am not gonna be ready for that just yet. It's too early, but I can feel the stares now, I can feel the men approaching. It's gonna take some getting used to. I won't be ready for anything in a long time.